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Saturday, August 28, 2004

oriteee. muscle achee. whole body. can even cough properly. the slightest movement will send nerve impulses to effector neurones. and ask my effector organ to stop moving due to the painn. reflex action. wheee. nvm. shudnt try to fluant my bio knowledge. bcos i sure fail de! i gif upp. ahaaaz. wahhh. this morning was realli torture. i wan to get up. bu hesitated. my spine was stiff. i am jus too afraid that if i move, i will sprain my spine. and be paralax for the rest of my life? aha. thinking too much. oh wells, my imaginative skills improveed. i am tryin v hard. to think of out the box, be creative and innovative. haaz. i am crapping. and i walkeed. from my house to bishan cc. which is like at the bus interchange. bcos my concession onli starts on mon. which is good. cos can save money. and i will not go out on sat and sun. which means, i must stay at home n study. ani kind souls wan to come my house pei me? =x nvm. all kind pple are dead. except for me. 0.o haa.no larhs. act there are many kind and nice pple. but some are jus caustically mean. it's their nature i guess. kou shi xin fei. alwaes like to twist their words. hai. twist here twist there. gao dao wo tuan tuan zhuan.but i think is me lar. owaes slow. v idiots. i v irritating. but haiyo. i realli duno marhs. i am innocentt!! =x but haiya. it's me. me. me. i hate myself.
haa. whie so negativee. haiyo. i mus be positivee. =)) act i oso duno if being positive is the real me. but i am trying to change myself for the betaa. cos i noe yi qian de wo. very irritating. very attitude. yahh. i am willing to changeee. =) i wan to change. and i will change. not for anione. but myself. but pple arnd me will benefit too. haa. dennn i wont irritate pple tt often. hoppefully. haa. lala~ xcountry was okayyy. quite funn larhs. last yr liao. denn the toot sinhui. starting jiu fall down! =x haii. poorr girll. den hai wo hafta run alonee. duno hand pain ish excuse nia not. but i am proud of herr.!!! u shud noelarhs horr. *winks* i chiong like shit in the endd. i wanted to gif up. but sumhow sumwad i thot of u. yahh. waitin at the end point. den i heck care my lungs. and legs. and runnn as if some monster was chasing after me.u were my motivation. i wan u to be proud of me. but.. nvm shant further elaborate.. act oso nothing to elaborate. haa. i am jus ffeelin stupid for feelin this way. haa. so childish liddatt. i think i was ugly when running? grasping for airr. sweating like maddd. haiyo. so uglyy. ohhi couldnt rmb anithingg. i don even noe who is that girl whom i push awae. cos she was tryin to take my position card!! den i jus push her awae. and take myself. and my mind was blank. my stomach was burning. head was spinning. juss couldnt tink. i din even look at my no. properly. jus noe ish 40+ but i could rmb one tcher shoutting at me. "yes. thats the way. u had overcome your pain" yahhh. that sentence sorta push me on.. spurr me wan to run faster. i will rmb tt. yes. i will overcome wadever pain i will be goin thru. yah. i will overcome the pain noww too. i ran. i belief i can overcome this too. yahhh. nowww. i am on the expresswae. i stopped a few times. jus for running wif a faster pace for the rest of the distance. yah. in case u are lost. and haf totalli no idea wad i am rambling on. yahh. i am refering to myselff.of cos.the way i am handling my studies. yahh. belief me pple. i will run like the way i did for the last bit. and i noe. u wont be running wif me. wont be able to shower words of encourgaement during the race. but i will constantly motivate myself. tellin myself tt u wann me to make it. and i noe u will be there like u were at the end point wif the over-sugared milo. rite. even if u had chose not to be there. i will still pyscho myselff. assure myself. tt u will be waitin for me to complete the race.

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